celloless

Yup. I'm venting. I went to a concert tonight which was amazing. The group playing was a string quartet and the first piece they played was a piece I had played before. All of a sudden all the memories and dreams of 10 years of playing cello constantly came back. Until about 9 months ago I was able to keep pushing through with school and music. I  was trying to practice 4 hours a day, plus normally about 2 hours of rehearsals. It really isn't surprising that my body gave out and that (according to the doctor) I will never be able to play cello again. My head gets it completely, but my heart does not. I know for some of you this seems such a small thing. So, thank you for listening to my small woes!

I am so thankful for the things I was blessed to be able to do growing up, and for the new things I am able to do now. I have always really liked things to be efficient so I enjoy the excuse to think about how to move less doing daily activities. My schedule has just been revamped to better flex with the bad days and keep me happy on the good days! Not only that but I have an amazing family that takes care of me and a great best friend who has stood by me through thick and thin. Yes, I am very very blessed. I just need to vent occasionally!